As an introvert, much of my life takes place internally, and for as long as I can remember, my state of mind, thoughts have revealed themselves as images floating inside my head. This personal visual vernacular has manifested themselves in myriad of forms, from the ink in my skin, to the work on my walls. Creativity, specifically, creation deriving from photographic means has been the only medium in which I have received any sort of pacification, sating the rush of visual bombardment. In an attempt to visually manifest this sensation, this 6'x 6' ‘collage’ mural was made. When considering how to depict this into a photograph, an image came to mind, a window into my inner self. This ‘window’ manifested itself into life size self-portrait depicting myself surrounded and encompassed by my work. Photographs, notes and
ideas were then collected from notebooks and portfolios. The papers in which these concepts have been printed and written were then thrown as the frame was taken. These chaotic assortments of images within the portrait were then emphasized during the printing process. Forty-five 11"x 14" based black and white matte paper were randomly woven one on top of the other, then painstakingly pinned the unexposed paper to a large foam core board before the enlargement process. One single 6x6 image was then enlarged on the collage of papers. The papers were then developed
and reassembled. This technique was used to emphasize and replicate the motif of the work, and the content of the image itself. Once the tedious process of production ended, putting the piece back together revealed an unanticipated feature to the project. The procedure, or ritual of reassembly and dis-assembly had become meditative and therapeutic process. The physical presence and visualization of the completed work allowed for relief, a deep breath granted from the realization of a plurality of concepts in a single piece. While taking the self-portrait down, stillness and peacefulness was felt, a deep exhalation.
6'x6' Photographic Mosaic, composed of fifty 11"x14" Silver gelatine prints